Tuesday, April 24, 2007

Leaving on a Jet Plane...

Finally, I have time to indulge myself into the world of blogging. As I go through my daily life I find myself thinking in my head “this would make a great blog”. Which is almost as bad as saying “this picture is going to look good on myspace”. I live such a simple life…
Of the many topics I have to write about…I think I will choose the one that is ultimately the most important to me at this time…Saying Good-bye. This isn’t always a huge topic that is taking up my precious mind space, but its important right now because Trevor and Michelle left. I was okay with it until Saturday night…then not so good. Even worse on Sunday, I cried, and as Ty will tell you that’s ok because I am a cry-er. (As Trevor reminded me, I cried when F*R*I*E*N*D*S ended and Chandler and Monica moved away) So Ty is obviously right-I am a cry-er. Back to the topic, I will surely miss them but am so honored to know such awesome people. I can now add to the short, but honorable list of people that I think God presented himself through to show his glory to me. Good Job God! Shine on Trevor and Michelle…You GUYS ROCK!

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

Tonight my twin sister walked into our room crying...It was sad. It made me want to cry for her. She wasn't really crying over anything too terrible. But the fact still remains that she was crying and it broke my heart. I wanted to cry with her. I think its the twin thing. Its nice every once in awhile to feel connected like that instead of feeling connected by lightning bolts! She is better now :-)

Monday, April 09, 2007

I just like this...Sums it all up:
Dear Lord, I thank you for this day. I thank You for my being able to see and to hear this morning. I'm blessed because You are a forgiving God and an understanding God. You have done so much for me and You keep on blessing me. Forgive me this day for everything I have done, said or thought that was not pleasing to you. I ask now for Your forgiveness.

Please keep me safe from all danger and harm. Help me to start this day with a new attitude and plenty of gratitude. Let me make the best of each and every day to clear my mind so that I can hear from You.

Please broaden my mind that I can accept all things.

Let me not whine and whimper over things I have no control over. Let me continue to see sin through God's eyes and acknowledge it as evil. And when I sin, let me repent, and confess with my mouth my wrongdoing, and receive the forgiveness of God.

And when this world closes in on me, let me remember Jesus' example -- to slip away and find a quiet place to pray. It's the best response when I'm pushed beyond my limits. I know that when I can't pray, You listen to my heart. Continue to use me to do Your will.

Continue to bless me that I may be a blessing to others. Keep me strong that I may help the weak. Keep me uplifted that I may have words of encouragement for others. I pray for those who are lost and can't find their way. I pray for those who are misjudged and misunderstood. I pray for those who don't know You intimately. I pray for those who will delete this without sharing it with others. I pray for those who don't believe. But I thank you that I believe.

I believe that God changes people and God changes things. I pray for all my sisters and brothers. For each and every family member i n their households. I pray for peace, love and joy in their homes that they are out of debt and all their needs are met.

I pray that every eye that reads this knows there is no problem, circumstance, or situation greater than God. Every battle is in Your hands for You to fight. I pray that these words be received into the hearts of every eye that sees them and every mouth that confesses them willingly..

This is my prayer.

In Jesus' Name, Amen.

Friday, April 06, 2007

Sometimes I think I want too much. I am too demanding and even more forgiving. I am afraid that my wants will run people away but my lack there of will cause people to run right over me. I take peoples advice, criticism, judgment, love, to heart way too much…or not enough. I think that living outside my body would make me feel better but I know it wouldn’t be right. I like sad movies, books, and songs because sometimes I am sad. I don’t want to be sad anymore, I don’t want to be negative but I don’t want to forget. I want to think less of myself and more of others, but I want to be thought more of too. I am afraid of standing up for myself but I am an advocate for a better life…especially if that means change. I want my life to change drastically for the better and I want to end all the changes that are for the worst. I want to like something; I want to figure out what I like. I want to have my own interests, hobbies, likes and dislikes. I want to be my own person…not someone else’s. I want to go to bed.